The needle: silver, gleaming, tapering down to nothing, a tiny funnel for gold sliding into my leg. I can feel it! a tickle in my throat a lower voice a few tufts fall from my head, I don't mind a new hairline. My muscles strengthen, my shoulders widen suddenly everything is lighter. fat moves, smaller hips making a little tummy that I will run off tomorrow. My face changes, slightly but enough. I look in the mirror, finally seeing myself for the first time. I imagine this again. everyday for another two years.
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So. This whole last year has been unreal. I came out to a lot of people – my parents, family, friends, professors, coach.. somehow made it to nationals in cross country, luck really. I an determined to give it my all this year in running. I somehow managed to have two 4.0+ semesters, and adopted a minor.. spent two months on the other side of the country. I’ve struggled a lot, but came through it in the end. I’ve been given a lot of opportunities this year and found a lot of supportive people that overshadow the difficult moments. It was perhaps the most dynamic semester yet. I’ve felt the lowest ever in my life and felt some of the highest. I really wish I had written a journal or taken some sort of note on my life over the years so I could remember the details and my perspective. It’s something I really regret. I can’t change the past, but I can work on the future.
I’ve ran anywhere from 2-14 miles every day save one since mid-August. I want to put that same consistency towards blogging, and make a blog post every day for the next year.
During the last month or so I’ve been really thinking about where I want my blog to go. I have a very few lovely followers, but I’m really doing this blog for myself.. all parts of myself. Since I’m not a single-faceted person there’s no way I can cater to a single audience and because of that I may never have very many followers. I’d rather show the full me to a few people than one piece to many people.
That said, I want my blog to be an interesting and never ending home. I’ll of course post about transitioning and being trans because that is such a big and difficult part of my life right now. But I’ll also post about running, my experiences of being a collegiate athlete in a difficult major, poetry. Maybe short stories or satire, even lists. I’ll probably comment on some news articles or science articles, maybe music. I definitely want to incorporate more pictures, and maybe a couple videos.. talk about others in a more positive way, or at least acknowledge their perspective.
By writing about my experiences I hope to come across others with similar backgrounds.
There will be something different every day.
If you think I might be interested in your blog and want me to check it out, just comment anywhere! Stay safe the end of this holiday season and tell yourself something nice. You are loved.